So I’m sitting job Starbucks listening to the Michael Buble or Chris Martin singing ‘have yourself a merry little Christmas’ with my toffee but latte, Nora Ephron book “I feel bad about my neck” and some free coffee capsules for an espresso machine I don’t have yet. Still, I speak it into reality and when I do have one I have capsules ready to go!
It’s New Year’s Eve and as I look up from my red cup to see girls studying, I’m surrounded by friends gathering and individuals engrossed in their laptops and books. As I stare at the Chinese girl across from me with a full spread of water bottle and coffee cups and a cute little iPad stand I am admiring her studious ways. What is she studying, I wonder? She’s clearly dedicated to be sitting in a standard coffee shop on New Years Eve with Christmas music playing overhead to be almost oblivious to her surroundings. It got me thinking about the purpose of studying, and indeed the purpose of life?
What is the purpose of life? What is the meaning to study and apply one’s self? Is it for a dream job? A car, a house? To what end would anyone study and want to study so much so that they would find themselves sitting in Starbucks on New Year’s Eve? I have yet to find the answer.
Me, Wednesday 31st December 2016
I am trying a new approach this year to take a break and to be content with myself rather than running myself into the ground to do or achieve something that may need a bit more time to produce. Don’t get me wrong I’m not advocating myself to be lazy, but as a very good therapist, I know made a very good point that we are so consumed in our culture with rushing around trying to be or achieve a certain status in life and success. I wonder if we were to really think about where we are in the journey of our life and what our definition of success is, what would that look like? If we were to inspect our motives do they derive from comparison or fear, or a secret addition to obtaining approval from those we are trying to imitate or impress. What would life look like if we actually stopped for a second to be ok with who we are, where we are?
“Brothers and sisters, I do not consider that I have made it my own yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the [heavenly] prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
PHILIPPIANS 3:13-14 AMP
I often have big elaborate plans for the next year at this point, but to be honest I’m trying to take a sabbatical right now from doing anything except being comfortable in my own skin. That’s harder than it looks y’know. However, in the last few hours of this year, I have come to the conclusion that my word for 2017 is surely hope. Without going into the obvious challenges this year has presented for all of us, I think it’s more important to focus on the present and how we move forward in the best way possible. And for me, hope is the only way to do that.
“We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.” HEBREW 6:19
So what’s going to happen with this blog and will we ever read your book? Yes, of course. I am currently juggling work, Frame Your World (my inspiration stationary and prints collection which you can check out here), and my long in the pipeline novel. This year I will be working to get that out, but in the meantime, you can feast on this blog. On the 1st of every month, I will be posting an entry on here that will either be similar to this post (random thoughts on life) or a chapter from a new online story, which I will open up and allow you to get involved in writing… if you want, of course.
Starting with the title, which I envision to be either:
1. Notes from Cherry Tree Lane
2. Hope writes
3. Year of Hope
Pop your preference below, or on any of my social media channels. I can’t wait to get writing because next month is February – the month of love!
Thank you for every second you’ve spent reading my posts, stopping by this website and supporting me. I wish you a very happy and prosperous New Year!
P.s I am aware of the spelling errors written above such as toffee but latte, written for humour effect.
I recently asked myself the question: Knowing what I know now, what would I say to my younger self to help her navigate this latest season of life better?’
Sometimes life can reflect a storm at sea. When everything seems up in the air, and unclear, or uncomfortably choppy you will be challenged about what your future holds, and what you believe. Make sure you decide early on that you are in it for the win. Remember the win is more than a team, a nice word, or label. It’s an attitude and a mindset to believe in yourself no matter what. There is a verse in proverbs 21 that says ‘do your best and prepare for the worst.’ Make sure you do your homework and prepare well for the many opportunities that come along. Consider them carefully before you say yes, and be mindful of your thoughts along the way. Sometimes the sun may shine, the rain will fall, and fog will be present all on the same day, so make sure you are ready, and dress your best each morning.
Sweetheart, if you do experience all three in one day, then do not worry. Hold on tight to the rope of hope, which you’ll find anchored deep down inside. It’s the inner compass that floats somewhere between our tummies and our heart. Some call it a spirit; but if you get into trouble, or feel panicked and pressed by external circumstances, then listen in closely for that still small voice. There is instruction waiting on your heart, and instinct on your mind. Reach in my darling, and hold on tight. The beauty of a storm is that when you hold on to that rope of hope, you will always come out stronger than before you entered in.